serendipity

After publishing the previous post, I flip over to re-read it on my blog homepage. My playlist kicks on and this is the song that the "random shuffle," which usually produces serendipitous subliminal messages, chooses for me to hear:

Waiting For My Real Life To Begin

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down, on me

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
But don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again
And you say, just be here now

Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon
It's just that times are lean

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine in
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

inspired by another near stranger

hey baby,

I know I'm a mess right now. I don't have things all figured out. I don't even know where I'm going to be living in a month and a half, but I want to tell you something: I think about you all the time. I think about the first time I'll meet you. I wonder what you'll be like. I feel like I will know the minute I see you that you're the one. Our bodies' physical and energetic geometries will fit together with undeniable precision. The thought of you is what keeps me going some days. The thought of you encourages me to get my act together, to work toward becoming the woman, the wife, that I want to reveal to you. I'm not ready to meet you yet. Like I said, I'm a mess right now, but one day, I'll get to tell you all about it, and we can look back, and appreciate our paths and where they have brought us. And from there, we'll look boldly into our future, knowing that we are an unstoppable team - a divine unit of creation, our harmonious energies bringing life into this world. Until then, I have work to do. We'll find each other, I know. When the time is right. For now, know this: I love you, and I thank God for you, my husband, every day.

love,

your wife